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fandomcorner ([personal profile] fandomcorner) wrote2010-06-14 08:44 pm

Ficlet: Just Jensen

Title: Just Jensen
Author: [livejournal.com profile] hils
Pairing: Jensen/Misha
Rating: R
Word Count: 508
Summary: Misha watches as Jensen slowly sheds Dean and comes back into himself
Notes: Partially inspired by this manip. Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] 42footprints and [livejournal.com profile] hsapiens for the beta work


The first time they were on a break from filming, Misha figured it was laziness that led Jensen to grow his hair and not shave for weeks at a time. Not that Misha blamed him. Their schedules were hellish, and Jensen had the added burden of having to get in and out of Dean Winchester’s exceedingly fucked up head on a daily basis.

Misha gets it, though. When he takes his annual retreat to Tibet he uses the silence to find himself again, and brush away anything lurking in the back of his mind that isn’t ‘Misha’

What Jensen does is something more relaxed and gradual, and arguably less extreme, than sealing himself in a monastery for ten days, but it’s fascinating to watch. Every time Misha sees him after they wrap there’s a little less of Dean and a bit more of Jensen.

It’s not that Jensen is embarrassed about the way he looks. He’s made a career out of his appearance for long enough that he recognizes his looks for the asset that they are, and he rolls with the jokes on set about how pretty he is.

But this is his way of stepping back from that. During the summer he’s not Jensen Ackles, model turned actor. He’s just Jensen, Texas boy who loves his barbeque, a few beers and watching sports on the TV.

At Jared’s birthday party, Misha can’t help watching Jensen’s lazy smile and the way his hair drops into his face every once in a while as he’s talking.

“The hobo look looks good on you,” he pants during a well-timed joint visit to the bathroom. “You’re so fucking hot.”

He likes the way the beard scratches against him when they kiss, and he especially likes the way it tickles when Jensen sucks him off. It reminds him that this Jensen, the one he’s with right now, is all real. No fake smiles or perfect grooming. Just him and Jensen alone, free to be themselves and to do whatever the hell they like.

“I was thinking I might grow a beard too,” he says as Jensen drops to his knees and works at Misha’s fly. “Show solidarity for you and Padalecki. The bearded wonders.”

Jensen’s hands still and he chuckles softly. “I saw that photo of you, you know. The one with the beard and the underwear. You looked like a fucking drug dealer, man.”

Misha shrugs. He hadn’t really been serious anyway. He’s already comfortable enough in himself that he doesn’t feel the need to change how he looks anyway. He’s already fallen back into the habit of wearing the few items of clothing that feel comfortable and remind him of home.

But what really feels comfortable right now is this. Just him and Jensen, alone together, even if they are hiding out in Jared’s bathroom.

“You’re thinking too much,” Jensen murmurs as he slips a hand inside Misha’s jeans. “Again. Better do something about that before it gets too serious.”

Misha draws in a sharp breath and smiles.

[identity profile] mulder200.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah! That's sweet!

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks! :)
ext_1645: (Misha -- With Jensen)

[identity profile] hsapiens.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It's an inspiring -- and good - manip. I like the distinction between "Jensen Ackles" and "Jensen." Very hot.

Two betas and we both missed the extra 's' on need: ...that he doesn’t feel the needs to change... Doh! Sorry.

[identity profile] harper47.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I like the idea that Jensen uses the beard to shed his "pretty boy image". I'm not a big beard fan though I know many people are and while I love the scruffy look, beards aren't my fave.

You know one of my favorite thing is imaging the boys looking at various things on the internet and their reaction. LOL at Jensen thinking he looked like a drug dealer.

Lovely job - sweetness and hotness all rolled up together.

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

Shh! I'll sneakily edit now. No one will ever know

[identity profile] love-jackianto.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
'I saw that photo of you, you know. The one with the beard and the underwear. You looked like a fucking drug dealer, man.'
Love that line. The first time I saw that picture I thought, 'why did Misha post a picture of Rob Benedict?'

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL! The drug dealer comment was actually made by one of Misha's friends which is why he shaved it off, or so he says anyway. Who knows with him. LOL! I just adapted it for this *g*

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
LOL! He did look a lot like Rob with that beard

[identity profile] livetoconfuzzle.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Awwwesss hun that was well lush! *cwtches* XD

[identity profile] sinnerforhire.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Awwww, I love it! ♥ ♥ ♥

"I saw that photo of you, you know. The one with the beard and the underwear. You looked like a fucking drug dealer, man.”

SO MUCH WIN. Snarky!Jensen is love.

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww! Thanks hun!

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I do love my Jensen with a side order of snark *g*

Thanks! Glad you liked it

[identity profile] nalathilion.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:21 pm (UTC)(link)
ALL RIGHT MISS [livejournal.com profile] hils_k THIS IS FULL ON AWESOME.

DURR... IT TICKLES!!!! OMG. I need a moment.to.compose.myself.

[identity profile] love-jackianto.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
He certainly had the whole Prophet Chuck going on.

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
WOW! I GET CAPSLOCKED! YAY!

Thanks! *g*

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Prophet Misha

[identity profile] cristiline.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Awww, that was too cute!

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks! :)

[identity profile] love-jackianto.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, although 'I'm the Prophet Misha' just doesn't have the same ring to it.

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
No, it doesn't *g*
ext_19310: (Jensen/Misha - hands)

[identity profile] stageira.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
You know this is a pretty damn insightful ficlet! I can totally see Jensen leaving a beard just for those reasons!

Totally cute ♥ Yes Jensen, stop Misha from thinking! :)

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Hehe! Thanks! It just popped into my head so I had to write it

[identity profile] featherswhistle.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Ohhh More Jensen/Misha love!!!
Thank you so muchhh~ :D
Srsly, Love your sweet fic and ohh *drools* The manip is awesome ♥

Jensen with ticklish beard --> hot visual image.

x) Drug dealer Misha. Gotta love that!

Thanks again \o/

[identity profile] pyjamagurl.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
D'aww cute, I love it ^__^

[identity profile] cassiopeia7.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
That was really sweet. Bravo!

[identity profile] zanyrainey.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmmmmm, you make me feel so good!

LOL! I hadn't thought of that but Misha did look like a drug dealer in that pic!

[identity profile] wornoutbirks.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 11:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I love this! Especially the last few lines. I like how you brought Jensen's change in appearance in as a plot pieces (and heck, I could totally buy that as being true).

As a side note, I have that picture of Misha set as my wallpaper. I adore it.

[identity profile] wolfrider89.livejournal.com 2010-06-14 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
<3 Loved this.

[identity profile] blue-fjords.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, the beard! I like the beard. I like sans beard. I like scruffy. For both of them. And I like stories that ruminate on the meaning of the beards. Nice!

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Hehe! Thank you so much! So glad you liked it :)

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
LOL! Apparently one of his friends said the same thing. Maybe. You never know with Misha ;)

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:33 am (UTC)(link)
Aww! Thank you so much! :)

Yeah, I had that as a wallpaper AND my LJ header for a while

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:33 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :)

[identity profile] hils.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
Hehe! Thank you :)

[identity profile] littlehollyleaf.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 09:19 am (UTC)(link)
NICE. I really like how easy and familiar they are with each other here and the way you kinda jump into the middle of what feels like one of many Misha musings (heh, 'Misha musings' - I might trademark that :p). This feels like a snapshot of a much larger relationship and situation, a little window into the awesome of Jensen/Misha. Love it :)

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 09:20 am (UTC)(link)
Hehe! Misha musings is awesome. You should definitely TM it *g*

And thank you so much! *hugs*
ext_9136: (SPN - Castiel)

[identity profile] birggitt.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 09:25 am (UTC)(link)
Awwww, this is sweet! Also, I can see how the beard can be something like a barrier between the public and the private person.
As always, very well done!

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much! :)
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[identity profile] qthelights.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 10:01 am (UTC)(link)
Mmmm! Delish, hon! I adore that Jensen calls him on thinking too much. It's a lovely touch. Cute but alluding to a real friendship/relationship underneath. Mmm.

See, this was good, darling!

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-15 10:02 am (UTC)(link)
Aww! Thanks bb! I think it probably could have been better but *hugs*
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[identity profile] juanitatequila.livejournal.com 2010-06-16 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
D'AWWWWWWW!! <333

[identity profile] kaylbunny.livejournal.com 2010-06-16 08:37 am (UTC)(link)
Awww, this is so cute ♥ And where it ends leaves me with nice mental images...

Think i'll add this to the rec list now before I forget :)

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-16 08:44 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks *g*

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-16 09:29 am (UTC)(link)
Wow! Seriously? Uh, thanks!

[identity profile] franzzypants.livejournal.com 2010-06-17 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
this was awesome. i have a total beard!kink and just imagning jensen's beard against misha *melts*

[identity profile] fandomcorner.livejournal.com 2010-06-17 10:56 am (UTC)(link)
WHEE! Thanks! Glad you liked it